Light and fun

I've been wanting to write daily the last few weeks but my emotions have been up down, up and down. Struggled with the words to write. Struggling with how I'm really feeling. Still am

Right now, the feeling is living life light and fun. Light and fun. Goofy. Silly. Taking nothing too seriously cause fuck how can you? If losing him hasn't shown me that what will?? One moment we were hanging out on his couch, the next he was gone. You never know what's going to happen. What's coming next? It may be the best thing for you and it may be the worst. So live it up people. Live it up.

Stop taking yourself so seriously. So you said the wrong thing? Oops. Now move on. You made the wrong choice. Oh oh. Now move on.

Stop taking anyone so seriously as well. They are just as human and bound to eff up as you are. Give them the room to be themselves. Dear God, please absolutely give yourself that room.

So do the things you're afraid of. Put yourself out there even with the fear of looking like an ass. So what? You won't look like one but even if you do, someone like me is going to admire the fuck out of you for doing it. I'm gonna respect you so much more than I would you sitting in your little confined cute box. Don't be me. Don't be the girl who has been so afraid to risk. To risk herself. Her feelings. Her joy. Her happiness. Be the person who is light and fun and just plain ridiculously happy.

Life can be, is and will be absolutely too short to be anything different.......just do it. Live it. Be it.

.........Happy ......

xo
barney