I keep seeing reminders to set your intentions. Your goals. What do you want from 2017. What do you want to create.
I have no fucking idea. Honestly. Maybe not be so sad. To heal.
Because really the only thing I want I can't ever have again. The only thing I'm missing from my life will never come back. Do you know hard that it is to fully accept?
I only want him. I have everything else I could ever want.
Just him. Just our relationship.
It was so easy. No games. No mind games. No guessing. No anxiety. No indecisiveness. . It just was. None of the bullshit that I know dating or relationships can be.
So I have no idea what to ask for in 2017. I just want to go back to end of May 2016 when we met. Or better yet, the morning of August 14 and tell him to stay with me instead of going riding. Can I have that? Pretty please? Cause truly that's all I'd ever ask for.
So as I prepare to say goodbye to 2016 and hello to 2017, I feel sort of lost. I don't know what to ask for because I have no idea what I'm ready for.....
So maybe : Peace. Serenity. Strength. Gratefulness. Healing.
But really, I just want us.....fuck. Just us
xo
barney
